I'ma keep running

In my last post I mentioned that my body was responding to the injectables. It was a long 20+ days but things were moving in the right direction. Well, after the positive response, the follicles on the ovaries are stimulated and there are [approximately] 4 million additional hoops that need to be jumped through in order to get pregnant. 

Our first IUI did not work. The silver lining is this; we responded and arrived at the point where we could give it a shot!

The news was hard to hear. PJ brought home pizza, we drank good wine and cuddled with our girl; the best cure for a positively shitty day.

Just about the time where we came to accept our failure and were ready to move on, we find out that our next cycle is cancelled. Cancelled. Cancelled due to cysts on my ovaries. I'm telling you, infertility is not for the faint of heart.

This turn of events is not ideal but there is nothing we can do [have to keep telling myself that] so we keep our heads up and keep on keeping on. Keep our heads up and obviously take advice from Beyonce. 

Switching gears. Tyler's Married!

WOAH.

My little brother is hitched and we had a great time celebrating. I laughed, cried and was so proud of him. 

rehearsal dinner

sibs

best of the best

one back, one forward, one back, back, back

The other day in one of my many tearful calls to my husband after a doctor's appointment I said, 'who needs valleyfair when you have the rollercoaster that is our fertility'. It's up and it's way, way down - and I never ever know what's going to happen when I walk into that clinic. 

This cycle started on Femara and an increased dosage from last cycle's try. 

• Appointment 1: Doc didn't seeing any follicle growth and was visibly disappointed with the progress.
• Appointment 2: There was a little something there, enough that we could schedule another ultrasound (and get my hopes up).
• Appointment 3: A little follicle growth from appt 2. We decided to give it 5 days, ultrasound again and see where we were at.
• Appointment 4: Growth had halted. Cancelled cycle. See you next 'month' (I use month in quotes because for normal women, cycles are a month. For me; they could be years).

What a kick in the gut!

When the nurse called to give me the news she stuck to the party line in the infertility world ... "your best bet here is to try IVF". 

Gee, thanks. Call and give me terrible news and throw that at me... in a voicemail. 

What now?

Since there is not a response to the medicine that we're currently using we will have to jump up to injectables or gonadotropins. 

And, because it's better to laugh then cry - here is some infertility humor. Enjoy.

WE HAVE A PLAN!!!

I have never been more excited about a doctor appointment in my life. After waiting for what felt like forever Phil and I had an appointment with a RE! After my last appointment with my OB I was desperately hoping that she would listen to my concerns and say all the right things. Phil even said if she didn't hear me out he was going to get up and leave.. We had these concerns for no reason because we loooved our RE, the clinic, the nursing staff.. EVERYTHING. I couldn't believe it.

The Plan: I am started on 10 days of provera to start AF. On CD3 I'm going back in for a fasting blood draw and an ultrasound. On CD12 I will go back for another ultrasound and then we'll start Clomid - 50mg at first. We are going to do that + and Ovidrel shot and IUI (inter uterine insemination).

Philly will also have to have his dudes checked out. I will do an HSG and have all my levels checked.

I can't believe this is our plan...

Our RE told us that she gave us a 40% chance of being pregnant within THREE MONTHS. THREE!

I will do my best to keep this updated as we continue on this journey.



xo - Amanda