Thursday, February 4, 2016

Things Could Always Be Worse

Sometimes a day is just a day. The pits. A no good, very bad day. Days when it seems like it would be a good idea to climb back in bed than to continue with my adult-y duties. These days happen - to everybody.

Today I had the opportunity to volunteer with several of my colleagues at Feed My Starving Children. This is a great foundation that purchases, packs and ships meals to third world countries - and feeds children (hence the name). Today we packed 46 boxes of food - 36 bags of food per box - 6 meals per bag. Do the math (because I can't). I was a part of feeding these children, and to be honest, had a great time doing it. It didn't hurt that we had a couple of adult beverages afterwards to celebrate our philanthropy. 

Doing things like this, volunteering, really put life in perspective.

So, back my point that there are just days sometimes. Yes, I have days. Days that I want to crawl back in bed, but life could be worse. Doesn't it make sense to find the silver lining? To look for the positive? To smile even though something is tearing up your insides? 

Yes, it does.

There are children who are hungry. Families who are struggling. People are going through things far worse than I. So, I vow to keep my chin up and hear the birds chirping because life is pretty darn good, isn't it?



Monday, February 1, 2016

back on the horse...


What a whirlwind the last 4 months have been. After the aforementioned move and the holidays, we've finally been able to take a deep breath. While enjoying our new home, we decided that one thing was still missing... a baby. There are countless posts on my blog about us trying, experiencing loss and taking (massive) breaks. 

We've been on a 'break' since the end of 2014, but now feels like the right time. If you ask anyone when the 'right' time to have a baby is - they will say never. There's never a right time. 

But this feels like the most right time ever (for us).

Obviously giving it the good ol' college try didn't work so we started at a new Reproductive Endocrinologist. 

My new RE had to have the following attributions:
1 - don't tell me that IVF is the only way that I will be a mom.
2 - please, act like I'm a person.
3 - understand me and my past and how it shapes me and my decisions now.

Our new place succeeded and met all of my demands (without me making them, of course). 
We did the meet & great, talked about the past, talked about the future. It felt great. They wanted to re-test EVERYTHING - 8 vials of blood later we know the following:

- my prolactin is elevated (we knew that already)
- my TSH (thyroid stimulating hormone) is elevated (we did NOT know that)

What now:

- medications to regulate my TSH, then back for bloodwork
- then ultrasounds, meds, syringes -- the whole kit & caboodle. 


Thanks for reading. Thanks for being a support to my dude & I. Just, Thanks. 


 
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